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Frosty02
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Name: wouldn't u like to kno
Country: United States
State: Washington
Gender: Male
Interests: Friendz, basketball, drawing, pool, girlz
Expertise: Art, drawing, and animation
Occupation: Student
Industry: Entertainment
Message: message me
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Member Since:
5/14/2003
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How was it!?!
As I looked on the hospital bed and saw the pluggs and things coming in and out of my mother I had an ease of saddness, but when she looked at me and told me to shut up because I was to loud I just smiled and realized my mom is STILL THERE!!! My mom is the COOLEST! Let me let you know just how cool she really is. My mom is sharing a room in her recovery center with a 90+ old lady that has to be the meanest person I have EVER met! She never has anything nice to say and always gives my family and me the glare! I understand why this lady is angry though she is a sick very old person who is forced to live in a rest home! I wouldnt be happy!!! But anyways so Ryan and I were visiting my mom and this mean old lady was in the bathroom with the nurse, I was talking to my mom when she came out of the bathroom. I looked up at her and said HEY, how are you doing? She gave me a look and said " I am sick of everythign around here!" and turned away! I turned back to my mom who had the WTF look on her face and Ryan who as well had the WTF look on his face, and just began are convo again like nothing happened. The lady was talking to the nurse and asked her to turn off the light behind her bed, and right when that happened my mom turned her light ON! I was like mom why you got to turn your light on! The lady is trying to sleep! She is like 90! my mom said I dont give a fuck I want to see! Then the nurse asked the lady if she would want the TV on and she said no you can turn it off! My mom slightly under her breath said if she turns her TV off ill just turn mine up louder! I again said under my breath MOM!... You are NOT going to turn it up! Let her sleep! She is a sad, lonley, angry lady! We talked for a bit and my mom said she would be nice cuz I was there visiting her. I can only wonder what she does when I am not around! If a decription of my moms looks is disired she aint big! She is like 5'2'' 92Lbs bald from kemo, and you can always tell how good she is doing by her attitude! When she was all snippy with that one lady I knew my mom was feeling GREAT! She will never back down to anyone no matter if she is in perfect health or barley moving in her hospital bed! She is my mom! and I LOVE HER!
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A dark cloud has set over coaster! A time now where all seem to be unhappy! People at coaster all seem to be nothing but stressed or depressed! I know at this time I feel more stressed in my life than any other time that I can remember! Part of me feels depression just cuz no one else is happy! Another part of me is unhappy for all that is going on in my life! So much is happening, so much is changing! I wish we could all be happy again!
Wishing is an interesting thing! Cuz it is so easy to say! but not so easy to make true! Everyone wishes! I got all kinds! I wish my mom would get better! I wish Danelle wasn't leaving in a few days! I wish everyone could just chill and be happy! but I guess that's just what all that is, a wish! We got to all face the facts, and that is things we cant change happen, but we should work together to help each other!
I will leave this blog on one last note! This note is I love you all! I have been unhappy for a little while now, but know matter how I feel I will always be there for you if you need me! I strive on trying to help people! It makes me happy when I make someone happy, and so like I said before I got nothing but love for everyone!
Your Friend,
Josh
PS: For those of you that are leaving in the next few days I miss you already, and if you dare to never come back again. I will come to where you live and drag you back to your family! Don't forget us cuz I promise you, you will never be forgotten!
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| - Livin' On A PrayerYou know I could say I wish all day! I could say please and why!, but
you know what, I have come to the realization that an important part of
me is who I am going to be! and Disney is who I am! It is my place now,
and I will look back, and come back to Seattle as often as I must! but
if i don't try for Disney then I may not ever know what I could of
been! I have the best friends anyone could ask for! I am very thankful
everyday for everthing my friends have done and are still doing for me!
I will always be there for all of you Florida or Seattle! and know one
will ever be forgotten! I thank my friends from Seattle for
understanding why I must go! I thank my friends in Florida for opening
the arms to me for my return! I would be nothing without you guys!
Although I know over the next few months I will not be exactly the same
guy everyone knows, and I know I will need people to lean on! I am just
glade I got people like the friends I got, cuz well... There is no one
better then them!!!
Love,
-Josh | | |
| Have you ever had a big decision in your life. Where you dont know what to do or where to turn? My mom has told me her views, and most of the rest of my family! and its pretty much the same, but I still cant make that decision! I got so much in both places! but I think I know what is right, and I think I know what will be done! | | |
| I had the most interesting month of my life!!! March 1st, I go back
down to Florida! (which is going to be awesome cuz everyone from my
college program is coming back!!!) Same day I go back to florida my mom
goes for her usual check up with the doctor! March 2nd, I get told the
worst news anyone could tell me! They have found out my mom has
multiple tumors in her brain, and will have to go through radiation
therapy EVERYDAY!!! on top of the kemo she alreadly goes through once a
month! Maybe a week later I get a call from my boss over at
Aritstocrates! He lets me know about an awesome friend of mine by the
name of Gary who passed away! He died Scooba diving!! RIP miss you
tons! A few days after that I notice myself starting to fall for a
girl! I tell this girl how i feel, and it looks good!! Well all of a
sudden! SHIT HITS THE FAN! This girl is a friend of a friend of mine!
and this friend of mine i come to find has liked me for a while, but
has never told me, so now this friend of mine gets mad!! She claims I
fucked her over on her birthday and thats whats up, but the truth is I
didnt do anything wrong! so now the girl I like dont like me cuz
she dont want this other girl to get mad! (confused yet?) I
end up telling this girl that was gonna stop trying for her do to the
stress I could see coming! but it was too late! the stress and drama
was already there! I was told by this person that she had never delt
with shit like this, and I got to say it was and is still pretty bad!
So now I feel SUPER BAD cuz I couldn't help my feelings and told the
girl i liked about them cuz I had to! but now she is in the middle of
this mess and I am DEEP in the shit! and to be honest the girl I have
fallen for is super awesome and doesnt diserve any of this shit! Also
while all this is going on. I got a meeting coming up with disney
Imagineering!!! and this is what I have been waiting for my whole life!
SO I am SUPER STRESSED about this coming up really trying just to get
everything ready for the presentation i wanted to give to them, and
when i am just about ready to go Imagineering calls me and moves the
meeting to Fri Apr 8th! SoOo now i get to be more stressed
about that! I havent seen my mom since when she found out! and I havent
got to pay my respects to my friend!...
I wish I knew the next steps to take!...
I wish people could get over
petty shit, cuz man were not here on this earth for to long! Why the
hell would you want your life to be always in drama and bull shit! So I
once again Apologize to thoughs that have felt that I have caused
greef for and ask everyone just to CHILL, cuz like Gary you might not
be here tomorrow!!
I miss you mom, RIP Gary, much love to everyone!
-Josh
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